In 48 hours

I will have a new son or will be very close to it. They are inducing me at 6am thursday morning. Russ and I are dvery excited. Im so ready to "download" this baby as my daddy would put it. so i go to the dr in the morning one last time. Then russ and I have a ton of last min things to do before we head to the hospital. I plan on having my laptop and upd8ing though out the day.

An Amazing Night of Worship

Thats what tonight was. Anyone who knows me knows I love worship. If I could sing you best belive Id be on the wprship team, also if you know me you know I love Hillsong. Well guess what tonight Hillsong came to our church to lead wprship for us. This was just awsome. Russ knows I love them and we had planed to try and catch them the next time they were any where within 150miles. Well guess what no road trip. last week they called paster rick and said they had a free night and asked if they could come to NLC. Of course who can say no when its Hillsong. So tonight Russ, elaine and I loaded up in the van and went to see them all of 10mins away lol. Apey was gonna go with but she got called in to work :(. It ended up being gr8 I spent the whole 2 1/2 hours on my feet singin as loud as I could. I bounced, clapped and hooted and hollared all i could. I was worshipin my awsome God with all i had. Everyone kept thinkin I was gonna worship myself right into labor lol. It has been so long since i was so lost in my own lil world of worship that deep. It was just what I needed to left me outta this lil pit I had fallen into.

what happened 2 that blu eyed baby

Today I find myself completely amazied by they big boy my Robbyroo has be come. Just a lil over 3 years ago I held this tiney lil 8lb 6oz blu eyed baby boy. Who melted and stole my heart the moment I saw him. From that moment on everything I did I did to make his life better, to give him all i could. He has had so much control over m,e since his 1st breath. I remember the way I cried when they gave him is 1st shots. The excitment when he rolled over. The pride the 1st time he looked at me and said MOMMA. The fear as he started walkin. Now he is a lil boy. He is not a baby any more, this is so hard to belive. I sit back now and watch as he does things on his own. Lately he has doesthings that make me so happy but cry at the same timebecuz I know hes growin up. Like prayin. Its next to impossible not to cry when your lil boy sits down for a snack folds his lil hands bows his sweet lil head and thanks God for his apple, or when you get him the costume he really wanted and on the way home from the store you hear from the back seat"God is gr8 God is good let us thank Him for our Scooby Doo". Its just the sweetest the way he follows is lil brotehr around and helps him and makes shur he stays outta trouble. The way when his bubba falls down he is there helpin him up and kissin his lil forehead b4 even i can get there. He has become such and encourageing and uplifting lil boy. He is always sayin things like "mommu you are gr8 at this game" or "daddy your a good driver" "Bubba you build good with the blocks" its just amazing how fast they go from that lil baby you held in the hospital to there own lil person. Im so proud of the way my rooster is turnin out so far. THo I know we still have alot of work in front of us to help shape him into a gr8 man.

did i read that right

22 days left till our due date, Holy cow where did the time go. Im starting to get so excited about labor and delivery. You might find this crazy but I just love L&D. I even enjoy the "action part"(aka pushin) There is nothing more amazing then bringin a new life into the world. I wounder what hes gonna look like. How big will he be. I cant wait to hold him and rock him and teach him. And to see the boy he grows into and then see the man he becomes. Im ready so ready

it was a big full weekend

So this has to have been one of my better weekends in a long time. It started out with Russell and I goin to PF changs for dinner friday. This is one of my fav places but we hardly ever go. I just love there egg drop soup and steamed pork dumplins. I got to have those and some yummy lamb. But i didnt get my fav dessert I let russell pick that for once. I love the bananna spring rolls but he wanted cheese cake. Then after we left there we went and got robby'd bday gifts. Then met up with a couple of my friends Russ went to bed since he had to work the next day and I went out to the street races. I hadnt been to them in years. It was pretty fun. EVen tho the cops kept runnin us off and we would have to go to the next spot. I didnt get home till almost 1 then i was on the phone till almost 3. I was goin to bed as russ was gettin up for work lol. so then i slept till time for jills baby shower. I went to that then went to hang out with hannah for a couple hours then we went to the grove to see robby for a couple hours on his bday. Then back to hannahs. we had a blast it was mark hannah april chad russell me and for a lil bit elaine and ansly. we just hung out and talked while mark worked on the forerunner. It was 3 before we got home, then we passed out. We woke up sunday morning and I could not walk. but there where still things to be done so we got up and got ready and headed out to chuck e cheese for robbys party. I was not surprised by the fact that no1 showed up but our family. I figured it would go this way thats y i planed this party. Robby had a gr8 time and got many awsome gifts. After his party we all came home and took a nap. then woke up and played with all his new toys. he was so sweet sharing with davis. then it was bed time. On another note, ive lost my stinkin phone. It was dead sat night and i set it down some where here in the house when we got home but i was so tired and outta it that I have no clue where. Also our internet is down, we have to buy a new modom so if u have a 2wire u dont need let me no cuz we could really use it, The only way im online now is becuz Im jackin someones wireless lol. so Jones' who ever u are thanks for not havin a pass word on urs lol.

big changes and lil changes and catch up

We lets start by playing catch up. The boys have started mothers day out 2 times aweek and robby loves it. DAvus crys at 1st but has fun after he calms down. LAst week was just a blur it went by way to fast. Friday I woke up feeling so bad. I was so sore all over even my eyeballs hurt, and i had a feaver of 103. So i call the dr by the time they get back 2 me its like 430 and they want me tested for the flu asap. SO guess what all the dr offices are now closed. I was not about to go sit in the ER and wait. So in the car russ and i go and off to searcy. There is a walk in clinic there and it was open till 8. it was a good choice it took us 3 hours from the time we decided 2 go there over the ER to get in the car go to Crystal hill drop robby off get to searcy be seen and get back. so it may have been a lil drive but if i had walked in the ER and told them i was there becuz my OB wanted me tested 4 the flu I probly would have been there intill about 4am. So it saved alot of time. Plus by goin to the reg dr we saved money cuz we only had 2 pay our $20 copay. Turns out i did not have the flu thank God. when we got back in town we went and got me some snapple soup and meds for the weekend. Also I had not ate all day and had wanted PFchangs egg drop soup but since we nvr made it to lil rock 2 get any i was startin to crave MESO soup. Well russ went down to the lil sushi place here by the house and even tho they were closed talked them into sellin him some for me. they even put it in a cup so i could drink it. I nvr realized how perfect that stufff is for when ur sick. so by the time i take a bath and eat my soup and take my meds its 11 i went to bed and slept till 330pm the next day. but I woke up feeling amazingly better. So i showered did my hair and makeup and was off to my Father in laws bday dinner. We \had whole hog and i was so starving for real food. So we ate then went to there house. I enjoy my in laws they are all some awsome ppl. they had davis callin the hogs. I am by no means a hogs fan at all. But i have 2 admit my lil man was so cute doin it. we then went home at like 11 and went to bed. We then woke up and all 4 of us headed Out to NLC. then we went and ate a big spagati lunch with my family and daddy had made his most awsome pineapple upside down cake. then we just hung out over there and watched movies till after 6, then we came home and put the boys to bed and Russ and i enjoyed some us time and had a really long talk. This talk brings us to one of the changes. We have decided it is time for our family to move on from Journey Church. We love everyone there but a couple months ago we started to feel like it was not where we were suppose to be. So we prayed about it and gave it an end of the summer timeline. We would visit other churches in the morning and keep goin to journey at night and see if we started feelin we belonged there again. Sadly that did not happen. We both feel it is time for us to return to New Life where we were before we started goin to journey. We are both sad to be leavin JC but excited to get more involved at NLC then we were before. We happen to have made our decision in time to enroll in Life Groups, and oh my are there lots to chose from. Im so thankfull for the knowledge and friends we gained at JC but now its time to move on.

self bedrest

ive been putting myslef on bed rest and light duty for severl days now. Ive been spotting and contracting on and off. Its not enuff for me 2 need 2 go 2 the dr but enuff for me 2 know ive been over doing it. im scared 1 death of pre term labor but the good news is i only need to hang in there a lil over a month.